I am thinking of three thousand things right now. I am really struggling with this whole "my baby is growing up" thing.
- The dentist said she would be losing her two bottom teeth soon. I had to go to the bathroom and get myself together.
- She is going to be in Kindergarten. How the heck did that happen????
- She sat down and read a book to me yesterday. She READ it. I helped some, but she read it. I was so proud! I started crying!
- We took cookies to the Kindergarten graduation today and I watched the class march into the church in their white clothes and teared up thinking that would be us next year!
- She informed me of an incident the other day at school where her best buddy wasn't really letting her play with another girl so Jemma told me that she really tried to help the girls communicate. She said communicate. The soccer coach was laughing hysterically on the side lines two weeks ago and after the game she told us that he head coach said to think of the soccer ball as candy and to go for it. Jemma said, "I am not really a (insert quote fingers here...) "candy person" per se." Where does she get this?!?
- She is inquisitve, funny, sweet and sassy! I just want to hang on to every single moment with her!
She has been talking quite a bit about wishing she had a baby brother or sister. I have had to tell her that we can't have more babies that God gave us her because she was so special. I don't know if I have ever shared the fact that we found out we can't have more babies. I have too few eggs and it appears my eggs are old. How weird is that? I am 39, but my eggs are those of a 42 to 43 year old. They are abnormal and that could be a factor in the miscarriages that I have had. The doctor basically told me that I have a very low chance of getting pregnant and a higher chance of genetic disorders. We cried and prayed and talked and worried over what to do. The BHW wasn't completely comfortable with the whole in vitro process but would do what I wanted. I then read Kim's (love her and her blog!) post on her blog Domestic Bliss about her pregnancy with her new baby boy. She basically talked about how she got pregnant against all odds because God wasn't done with their family and God wanted her to have this baby. That gave me so much clarity and we were able to make a decision to not pursue fertility treatments without regret. I still have a hard time every now and then, but I know that God has a plan for me and he gave me Jemma and for that I am forever blessed and grateful. With all that said, we talked about not having babies and how she would not be able to play with them as they would be too little to play with and she looked right at us and said, "You could adopt a 5 year old!" This child... what would I do without her to keep me on my toes!
We visited Tennessee again to attend my nieces 8th grade graduation. I remember them coming home from the hospital as a whopping 4 pounder and 5 pounder. How quickly they have grown into beautiful young ladies that I am so proud of!
Meet Carlos! He was a baby bird that my BIL found after the storms in Tennessee. They have been feeding him and I got in on the gig! Let me say that I fell in love with Carlos, and I think he loved me too. Every time I came into the room, he would start chirping. He may have been just hungry, but I think it was because he loved me.
We leave for Ireland in 2 1/2 weeks. I didn't lose the weight I wanted. Oh well, I won't feel guilty when I drink my Harp or Smithick's now!!!
RANDOM PICTURES...
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| This is me and my girl on Mother's Day going out to dinner. She loves this hat and wore it the whole evening! |
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| First trophy = So Proud of Herself!!!! |
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| Gorgeous sunset on the Isle of Palms at The Boathouse Restaurant. Excellent food and beautiful views! |
I told you this was a totally random post! If you are still with me... thank you. Thank you for always reading and commenting and just being out there!
